may fourth means something different...a short intermission

"Chance Is the Only Game I Play With." Lorde

There is a chapter that is getting closed so a new story can be told. It’s the one about the woman who needed a change and all she was asking for was coming true, it just took some diligence, time, patience and faith. She had that down and therefore she would get everything else. The story starts on a clean sheet of paper…her thoughts transform to small reassuring victories. She stayed stagnant in this unsettling dance. She knew there was more to life than the four corners she called home. She knew everyone at one time or another wanted to go away and that nagging escape pulled at her like a hungry child waiting to be fed. She came, she conquered…she did what needed to be done to the point that there was nothing left to do. It was her time to explore new territory instead of the same road she’s seen a million times before.

  

She wasn’t nervous about what the future held or slightly scared about saying goodbye to everything that became comfortable or familiar. It was just that-comfortable and familiar. She was okay with taking risks. Most of the time, they made her learn something valuable and all those risks led to something beautiful. Those disasters created something beautiful. She lived a conventionally unconventional life.    Life and all its lessons came with a calmness about becoming stronger, more responsible, and less likely to fall for the traps that made her question everything about herself.

Of course she went through the ups and downs but without them, there would be no now or then. Sure, there would be things, looking back, she might have changed but there’s something to be said about the butterfly effect. Without this, there would not be that. “That” seemed pretty special.

“That” was what she wanted and while she stood still for a moment, it was just that-a moment. Soon, the wind would lead her in a different direction with a new story to tell. It would be one about a new beginning made to fill pages full of beautiful memories.

Under a rock, she would ask him to marry her. Under the stars, she would start her future.